If Not Now When?

This has become my mantra over the past year and my goal is to continue this attitude into 2012. 

What does it mean?  To me this has meant going back to school, starting a business, doing what I love and losing 25 pounds.  These are things that I have wanted to do for several years, but my road blocks kept saying I was too busy, I had too many responsibilities, not enough money and definitely not enough time.  While all of these things had some truth to them, the reality was that I was putting everyone and everything else in my life first. 

So, what changed?  I needed to feel a sense of worthiness that emanated from my soul and I definitely was not getting it from the laundry, house cleaning or hauling my kids all over town.  That's not to say that I wasn't happy with my life or that I wasn't enjoying taking care of my family, but I needed more.  I needed to feel that I was living out my potential and if I wasn't going to do it now...when was I going to do it?

Being worthy enough to do something just for yourself takes practice.  It takes small steps and it doesn't happen overnight.
I have been working at this for a year and I am far from where I want to be, but it's progress and I love it. 

The irony is that the things that used to keep me busy like the laundry and the house are still there, but they have taken a very low priority.  Most importantly, my kids, who I felt took everything I did for granted, seem to appreciate who I am even more now.  Are they happy that they have to do their own laundry or help out more around the house? No, but I believe they feel my sense of worthiness and see that I am living out my truth, not just speaking it!

So, when my daughters actually comment on a blog, ask about my clients or compliment my weight loss, I feel a tremendous sense of accomplishment and worthiness.  I am so happy that a year ago I asked myself the question, "if not now, when?" 

This year when you are faced with the decision to work out, go back to school, change careers, run a marathon, lose weight, move out of state or anything else that might be causing you pause...just take one small step in that direction. 
Tomorrow, take one more small step and by 2013 you will have made a noticable change.